For the past few days, maybe a week, I’ve been feeling energetically drained and physically tired. It is becoming increasingly difficult to keep my eyes open and mind focused as two o’clock in the afternoon saunters through my day.
I have also been hearing the high-pitched tones. They are increasing not only with frequency but intensity and as they happen it is often difficult to focus on anything else.
It is a challenge for me to stay focused on the physical realm and concerns of daily life especially when I am feeling exhausted. I find that the sensation of a ‘trance’ is just a breath away and if I were to just lay back and allow it to wash over me I would be gone for hours at a time. This sensation has no understanding of appropriateness and can occur any time and any where but mostly in the afternoons around two o'clock ... although as I type this it is 11:55 am, and I feel that urge to drift. I do not want to give in to this sensation because it feels so counterproductive as I've been putting effort into the integration of my body, mind, and spirit.
I’ve taken a few minutes to eat my salad with the hope that the energy of the vegetables will infuse me allowing me to be more focused. But as I sit here at the computer, I listen to the hum of the fan behind me and I can feel the tingle of trance creeping up the back of my neck and over my scalp to the top of my forehead and, the tones – they have begun again.