Something is occurring within me. I am not certain what it is but it is ‘something’. It is probably a vibrational shift or realignment but usually when these have occurred I knew it was approaching and was prepared for it but this one, well, I can’t say I was prepared. It seemed to have been sprung upon me. Or perhaps I wasn't paying attention and was distracted by other things ... more mundane concerns. Unless, this isn't even an energetic shift and something entirely different. I just don't know. I'm not sure how to proceed. My husband has suggested that perhaps I am under some low level pressure ... if this is the case where is it originating and why is it here? What is the purpose of this experience? I am baffled.
For the past few days, maybe a week, I’ve been feeling energetically drained and physically tired. It is becoming increasingly difficult to keep my eyes open and mind focused as two o’clock in the afternoon saunters through my day.
For the past few days, maybe a week, I’ve been feeling energetically drained and physically tired. It is becoming increasingly difficult to keep my eyes open and mind focused as two o’clock in the afternoon saunters through my day.
Why am I so exhausted? I haven’t altered my sleep schedule so this seems strange to me. I have even begun to consume caffeine again in an effort to stay awake and focused during the day! Everything seems so counterproductive. All the work I've done to achieve personal balance feels as if it is becoming undone. I am frustrated by this and I’m not sure how I should proceed.
I have also been hearing the high-pitched tones. They are increasing not only with frequency but intensity and as they happen it is often difficult to focus on anything else.
It is a challenge for me to stay focused on the physical realm and concerns of daily life especially when I am feeling exhausted. I find that the sensation of a ‘trance’ is just a breath away and if I were to just lay back and allow it to wash over me I would be gone for hours at a time. This sensation has no understanding of appropriateness and can occur any time and any where but mostly in the afternoons around two o'clock ... although as I type this it is 11:55 am, and I feel that urge to drift. I do not want to give in to this sensation because it feels so counterproductive as I've been putting effort into the integration of my body, mind, and spirit.
I’ve taken a few minutes to eat my salad with the hope that the energy of the vegetables will infuse me allowing me to be more focused. But as I sit here at the computer, I listen to the hum of the fan behind me and I can feel the tingle of trance creeping up the back of my neck and over my scalp to the top of my forehead and, the tones – they have begun again.
I have also been hearing the high-pitched tones. They are increasing not only with frequency but intensity and as they happen it is often difficult to focus on anything else.
It is a challenge for me to stay focused on the physical realm and concerns of daily life especially when I am feeling exhausted. I find that the sensation of a ‘trance’ is just a breath away and if I were to just lay back and allow it to wash over me I would be gone for hours at a time. This sensation has no understanding of appropriateness and can occur any time and any where but mostly in the afternoons around two o'clock ... although as I type this it is 11:55 am, and I feel that urge to drift. I do not want to give in to this sensation because it feels so counterproductive as I've been putting effort into the integration of my body, mind, and spirit.
I’ve taken a few minutes to eat my salad with the hope that the energy of the vegetables will infuse me allowing me to be more focused. But as I sit here at the computer, I listen to the hum of the fan behind me and I can feel the tingle of trance creeping up the back of my neck and over my scalp to the top of my forehead and, the tones – they have begun again.
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