Hear My Words

I have a confession to make to you. I do not always listen. Yes, it is true. There are times when I hear but do not truly listen. When I contemplate why this is I realize that for me it is because I am constantly being bombarded by so many other vibrational frequencies that I do my best to quickly sort out what is paramount to me in that moment, focus and listen to that one frequency, discard the others and move along.

This self-realization came on the wake of a personal spiritual shifting. This past Saturday morning I was driving to Dunkin Donuts to get myself a cup of coffee after dropping my son off at his martial arts class and listening to my MP3 player, which has a selection of songs that has been on there for 

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months. Some of the selections are played more frequently than others (Kesha, Alicia Keys, Nicki Minaj) since my daughter has a fondness for them while I others (Madonna, Sully Erna, Justin Timberlake). Since I was alone in the car for a short time I was able to listen to the songs I wanted. I advanced the player to the four songs by Sully Erna: Sinner’s Prayer, The Departed, Avalon and Voodoo. As I listened I appreciated the smoothness of the sounds that filled the interior of my car. The blending of Sully’s voice with Lisa Guyer’s was amazingly beautiful. The voices of the guitar, the drum, the bell and the collection of other instruments with theirs created such a wonderful experience for me. I began to then allow myself to focus and listen to the lyrics. At first as I listened to The Departed I realized how interesting the message was ...

“To think, beyond what you could think
And feel, beyond what you can feel
To see, beyond what can be seen
And be, beyond what we believe …”

... and how much I could relate to it. I hadn’t realized how much I resonated with this particular song. That song ended and the next one began. Avalon. This was the moment. 

"A veil of sparkling white soothes and bathes me in the light
It fills me with the suns and visions of the ancient ones
Descend to me, and soothe my disarray
And so it’s done – Hear my words Avalon


Fields are swaying like dancers in the moonlight
Rivers filled with dreams – Unbroken and still promising
Descend to me, and soothe my disarray
And so it’s done – Hear my words Avalon

Warm inside – Open the way in
Float into the night – Embrace what’s to be
Avalon"

As I listened to these lyrics (and even now as I type them in) I understood not only with my mind as I comprehended what the words were but with a deeper understanding with my soul and I felt (and feel) such an overflow of emotion that I began to sob. Please understand that these are not tears of sadness but tears of another nature. A longing? A pulling within me towards … what exactly? Avalon?

I type that here and find myself snickering at the ridiculousness of that idea. Avalon, really CricketSong. Avalon? I think I find that a bit cliché. A pagan loving Avalon. Not that there is anything wrong with that, it’s just that I do my best not to run towards things that ‘everyone’ does. In addition all that I know of Avalon is what I’ve learned from Arthurian Legend through books and movies such as The Mists of Avalon which I will admit is one of my all time favorite movies. So perhaps there is something more here for me to discover. And this time I promise I will listen.