There will be a few blog posts with my personal responses to some of the questions found in each chapter of this book. I urge you to follow along with me as we experience the Goddess within.
The nineteenth chapter is about The Maenads and you can find the questions I will be answering in this post on page 237 of the book.
I have an addictive personality - at least I believe I do. I smoked cigarettes when in high school and college then again a few years later. I have had an addiction with caffeine and food particularly carbohydrates (bread). I think that if I had been introduced to recreational drugs while in high school or college I would have been addicted so perhaps it is a "good thing" I was not.
If you currently practice an addictive behavior, when does the urge seem strongest? What emotional benefit do you seek from the behavior? How does it make you feel when you have acted excessively?
I find that the urge is strongest when dealing with some type of feeling that is stressful, unhappy or boredom. I find that the addiction brings elation and helps heighten my vibration from where I am to a happier feeling. Once I am feeling better the guilt of doing something that I know is "unhealthy" for me or my body settles in and makes me feel badly once more. It is a cycle.
If you formerly practiced addictive behaviors, what made you stop? How do you feel about the behaviors now?
I stopped smoking cigarettes because it was becoming a very expensive habit. I began feeling the effects in my breathing and I didn't particularly like it.
What spiritual values might your own, or another’s excessive behavior hide?
I don't think there are spiritual values that the behavior hides. I do believe that the excessive behavior hides emotions and Shadows that would be more beneficial for the individual to work through and integrate. If the individual doesn't work through them they will linger and continue to hinder that individual's spiritual growth.
People often speak of controlling addictive tendencies. If you have struggled with this, how does that struggle for control feel to you?
I don't think it's a matter of controlling addictive tendencies but to be more aware of the emotional connection that we are making between the actions or behaviors and the situation we are resisting or denying or running away from. I think we are in denial if we believe it is a matter of controlling the behavior. It seems to me that this suggests that it is a force that is not our own and that if we don't have control over it we will be in an unhealthy state of being. Acknowledging, accepting and integrating the root of the behavior would be most beneficial and lead to a healthier and thus happier life.
Do you think of some addictive behaviors as more appropriate for women than others? Why?
No, I don't find that any behavior that would be described as addictive is appropriate for anyone. Balance is what is most healthy for both men and women.
Have you ever experienced an ecstatic moment in nature? Describe it.
Yes. Being in the moment within nature ... whether it is being surrounded by water, forest, stars ... feeling that exhilaration ... the inspiration that wells from within blending with the energy of the natural environment that is surrounding us is a most wonderful and satisfying feeling. Understanding that I am a manifestation just as this physical Earth is of God Herself and recognizing this Unity is overwhelmingly wonderful.
What does ecstasy or transcendence feel like for you?
Complete Unity and Oneness