There will be a few blog posts with my personal responses to some of the questions found in each chapter of this book. I urge you to follow along with me as we experience the Goddess within.
The fourth chapter is about Amaterasu and you can find the questions I will be answering in this post on pages 76 – 77 of the book.
If my life was a house I think the room that would be the messiest and disordered would be the kitchen. I respond this way because though I am trying to get my relationship to food ordered there is an ongoing challenge there. I have had this issue for most of my life. I am trying to put this in order with change of diet, juicing and fasting as well as examining my feelings before I eat and being aware of the food choices I make and the motivation for eating when I do.
Examine your actual home. Which rooms are messy, which ones are clean? What feelings and activities do you associate with the different rooms? Does your house indicate areas in your life that are not in balance?
In my actual home the only rooms that are messy or disorganized are the children’s rooms because I refuse to clean or tidy their rooms since they are old enough to handle that responsibility themelves. I generally keep a well organized home though admittedly I could do more dusting and ‘cleaning’ than I currently do.
The activities I associate with the living room are: socializing, watching movies or TV series, and reading. The feelings I associate with that room are: security, comfortability, love, caring, sharing, and trust.
In the dining room: spiritually based activities (including coven activities), homeschooling, business, as well as socialization. The feelings I associate with that room are: nurturing, trust, honesty, joy, sharing, caring, and love.
In the kitchen: food preparation, eating and socializing. The feelings I associate with that room are: nurturing, caring, sharing, and love.
The bathroom: self-care, elimination, and washing. The feelings I associate with that room are: purifying, cleansing, caring, and joy.
The bedroom: sleeping and sex. The feelings I associate with that room are: intimacy, satisfaction, security, relaxing, freedom, and love.
I do not believe that my house indicates the area that is not in balance. I think that individuals who come into my home believe or perceive that my life is generally balanced.
Make a list of words you associate with “order”. What does this list tell you about yourself and your attitudes?
Order: organization, management, regulation, tidiness, arrangement, placement, routine, law, rule
I realize that order is important for me when dealing with other individuals. Things have a place and everything is in its proper place to make for ease in finding things and being efficient. I dislike wasting time so when things are organized my time is used in the most efficient way allowing me ‘free’ time.
Examine your schedule. Are there areas of stress in terms of your use of time? Are there ways you can relieve this stress?
The only time I feel stress in relation to my schedule is when things fall behind or I am running late. If others are dependent on my arrival or my schedule I also become stressed. I do my best to schedule in extra time so I don’t end up running late and thus relieving myself of stress.
Describe your perfect home. Compare it to your real home. What is the difference? Can you make your home more graceful and comfortable by incorporating some ideas from your perfect home?
My perfect home would be somewhere in the suburbs or country. I would have a room dedicated to my home business as well as a space for other spiritual activities. I would also have a claw tub so that I could take baths and an outdoor shower that I could utilize in the summer time. The difference between the home we live in now and my perfect home is location and space. We rent this home so we can’t change anything structural on the house.
Describe your perfect day. Compare it to a real day in your life. What is the difference? How can you make your daily life more resemble your ideal?
My perfect day would be the ability to do what I want when I wanted with no responsibilities to other individuals. There isn’t a huge difference between my usual day and my perfect day.
Make a list of people who have annoyed you recently. Taking them one at a time, try to see the situation you encountered from their point of view. Are there things you are doing that make your life less easy with them?
The only individuals who have recently annoyed me are those who expect things of me that I am not able to or do not desire to do for them. I think that if they would be able to see things from my perspective they would understand the reasons why I am not reaching their expectations of me. I understand where they are coming from however it won’t change how I interact with them.
Select someone who makes you feel agitated, to whom you respond with fear or anxiety. Make a list of their character traits imagine yourself acting out those traits. What keeps you from being like them? Are there unexpressed parts of you that they allow themselves to embody?
The individual who I selected has the following character traits: intelligence, empathy, resentment, anger, self-loathing, defensiveness, unhappiness, loneliness, depression, and fear of abandonment.
I believe that at one time I was very much like them but because I have done some internal work with myself and have come to accept and love who I am we no longer resonate with each other. They feel uncomfortable around me and I believe that it is because this individual still holds on to and aligns with the 'negative' traits that I have released. They look to others to place value on them instead of finding their own value within.
Do you have any self-destructive habits, habits that do not bring you closer to the life you desire? How can you begin to eliminate these habits?
The biggest challenge I have is finding balance with my relationship with food. Some of my habits surrounding consumption of food is unhealthy and self-destructive. I am working to balance these habits, along with the thoughts and feelings I hold surrounding food by awareness of food choices, conscious eating, juicing and fasting.
When you dream, what villains appear? What qualities do these villains share? How can you begin to accept that their energy is a part of you?
I generally enjoy villains whether they are in dreams or other form of entertainment. The qualities of the villains I enjoy are: self-awareness, self-empowerment, the ability to charm or manipulate others and they are unapologetic about who or what they are. I realize that I am perceived as being many of these things and have in my past manipulated others for my personal gain but I also recognize that living life in that way doesn’t make me happy. Honest relationships with people are what I enjoy most in this life so living life continuously trying to manipulate others doesn’t create authentic relationships.