Energetically I am drained.
And emotionally I am depleted.
My reserves are dangerously low and I am continuously struggling with my personal interactions with others that I am tied to; whether they are family, friends, clients, or strangers. You see, I have nothing left in me to share or to give. It is painfully clear to me that it is time for me to withdraw myself from things that no longer serve me as I
So I have.
June will be a month of freedom. It will be a month that I will be able to focus on my own spiritual journey without being concerned about how I will affect others I am bound to. Currently I am in the process of severing etherical ties that bound me with different groups and projects that I had been involved with and while I imagined that this process would have been painless and easy I am finding that it is more difficult than I had anticipated, which gives me pause to contemplate why that is.
What had I allowed all this time? What sort of relationships had I nurtured in each situation? Had I created these exchanges that enabled the draining and depletion? Why had I done this? Why had I established such unbalanced relationships and situations? What was I “getting” from this dynamic? And most importantly … how do I change this behavior within myself?
June will be a month of personal reflection, contemplation, and deep shadow working. And although I mourn the loss of these relationships and projects that have provided me avenues of great growth I do not look at them as endings, but as beginnings of a new cycle in my own spiritual practice.