"This morning my husband and I were discussing the idea of death and reincarnation as proposed by chaos magician, Peter Carroll. You know,
This isn't the usual conversation that takes place among those who surround me especially when I gather in a large group. Usually there is discussion about jobs, children, family activities or vacations; not the deeper spiritual concepts that I generally contemplate. Would these people even understand what I'm talking about? Or would I instead be met with blank expressions or worse; the mock laughter at ‘how deep’ I am?
I realize that the majority of the people I interact with (offline) don’t have interests that resonate with me. My family and I don’t take many family vacations to other states, I don’t have a job that I dislike, I am in a happy relationship, and my life is stable without any drama. I am content. So it just feels like a waste of my time to continue to insert myself into situations where I feel like I don't belong. And you may interject that it is all in my perception that I only feel like I don’t belong. I would definitely agree with you, it is a feeling, a ‘vibe’ that I get when I am surrounded by others, but I would also point out that this psychic empath understands that a person’s body language speaks louder than what he or she says or doesn’t say.
Visualize this: I am standing by the window a few feet from another woman, the two of us are observing the actions of a small group of about five others from the larger group who have gathered that day. She and I make eye contact and exchange smiles as two others approach us. They are in the middle of a discussion. Though the woman and I are never directly included in the conversation with words, eye contact was made as the discussion unfolded before us. We were both listening attentively to what was being said. One of the two individuals who was engaged in the conversation was called away to attend to a situation in another part of the building, the other individual, the one who was actively speaking most of the time, abruptly turned their back to me and stood parallel to the other woman and continued the conversation with her, standing only an arm's length away from me. I could have literally reached out and touched their shoulder (or smacked the back of their head).
Tell me, what does that say to you? Am I reading something into it that isn’t there?
This is not the only situation I've encountered but it is the most recent one I've experienced. I feel as if I am a stranger most of the time; that I don't belong with others that surround me. It feels as if I am living somewhere that just doesn't vibrationally align with me any longer and I'm not certain what to do about it.