I have been having very profound visions and experiences in the other realms … there is great change and transformation taking place within me and within my Craft. Some of the experiences have been intriguing while others have been confusing with the most recent one is beyond words … I cannot accurately describe with my vocabulary what I experienced … an experience that was both fascinating and terrifying; an experience I begged the gods to end, but when they ignored my pleas for release and instead assumed the role of passive witnesses to my ordeal – I seriously considered suicide as I saw it
The concept of Shadow Work has been a part of my life for the last year or so and for the last few months has been a focus of my own spiritual practice, but the phrase has many different interpretations so for you and I to be on the same page about this concept as I discuss it in this blog post, I believe it is important for you to understand what I mean when I use the phrase “Shadow Work”. When I refer to Shadow Work I am referring to the process of discovering, acknowledging, healing and / or integrating those parts of ourselves that we may have been rejecting, denying or hiding in shadow and bringing them into the light of who we are. It is about knowing ourselves completely. It’s about self-love and complete self-acceptance and not about accepting those traits or characteristics that we believe others will easily accept. It’s about completeness of self. It is also about transformation because sometimes we may discover that we hold beliefs, ideas, and behaviors that are not beneficial for our over-all well-being and we may want
My sister, who is four years younger, is visiting with my two nieces from Texas. She moved to the Lonely Star state about three years ago for a number or reasons, but that is her story to share, and has come home for my nephew’s college graduation. She arrived in Massachusetts the first weekend in June and is planning to drive back to Austin at the end of July. And I’m going to miss her. To be completely transparent concerning my feelings about her departure; I don’t want her to go. I simply don’t want her to leave. And as surprising as it was, when I sat here at my PC and typed out the proceeding words, tears rolled down my face. I understand that my desire for her to stay is completely selfish and that these feelings are premature because she still has two more weeks in Massachusetts, but I can only imagine that my desire will not diminish, but grow. And, yes, I realize that it is completely necessary for her to return to Texas, but if I had the ability to keep her here without compromising her and my nieces’ well-being, I would. Seriously, I would cast a fucking powerful spell and it would manifest.
This is definitely a time for severing ties for me. These times aren't always a peaceful and joyful experience: sometimes it is painful and filled with sorrow. This is one of those times. I find myself reflecting on what has transpired over the span of the time that I was bound to the person or situation and what has now manifested into being from that experience. It has always been difficult for me to let go of relationships in my life, though I realize that it may appear otherwise. To those observing my actions and responses to the cutting of ties, it may seem as if I am detached and cavalier, that severing a relationship is a simple task for me, but I can assure you that it is not. Inside I am unsettled, troubled, and an emotional wreck.
No one can force someone else do something they are not willing to do. You cannot create a life experience for someone else. You can only create it for yourself. We can only live our life for ourselves. And it is you who can change things in your life for yourself. It is when a number of individuals have the same intention and are shifting the vibrational frequency of their own life in unison with others doing the same that we experience a change within society. It is me changing myself, changing my own life at the same time that you are changing you, changing your life, him changing his own life at the same time that you and I are changing ours, and her changing her own life at the same time that you, him, and I are changing ours. Together we create a vibrational shift that builds
In the past I have described myself as a "people person" I generally have looked for the best qualities and the potential that people hold within themselves. A friend and I might engage in a conversation about a coworker of theirs and they would describe a situation where they witnessed actions that seemed to be motivated by spite. They would then label that individual as “an asshole” but I would pleasantly and honestly explain how that “asshole” had qualities that would balance their personality. I would highlight the wonderful things that my friend had told me about this person before. I did this without hesitation and with ease because I truly could see these positive characteristics and I believed the words I was saying.
An example of how I did this would be when discussing the overall concept of The