Relationships are difficult rivers to maneuver through and honestly I believe they were designed to be challenging and messy. They are the means created for human beings to gain a deeper understanding of our authentic selves, of the true self of others, and the overall nature of humanity. Relationships are how we connect with that which is divinity or deity or God, whatever you perceive as the source of All There Is. When we interact with another human being, we become a mirror for them, and they us. We reflect behaviors, attitudes, and personality traits back to each other, which enables us to “see
This is me. I am who I am right now in this moment, but I am constantly reevaluating myself, changing the characteristics and traits that do not serve me any longer, transmuting the energy of previous beliefs and false truths I created, which are based solely on the perception of others, and I am becoming the woman I desire to be. I am aware that this may be difficult for you to witness and may be challenging for you to understand at times, but this is who I am; a work in progress, forever becoming. While I want to continue to be in this relationship with you because it means more to me than I think you perceive it to mean; I cannot make you stay. I cannot force you to be somewhere you have no interest in being and it is possible that at this time you are unable to be here with me due to your own tribulations. Please know that I love you unconditionally. I accept you even when you have trouble accepting yourself and I desire for you to find the peace within yourself as I have found within me. I hope you stay. I hope that you are willing to put effort into healing our relationship and bridging the gap that we have both acknowledged exists, but I understand if you chose to instead leave. I will always be here for you, even if you have trouble believing that I will.
I encountered the following post on the page of a family member on facebook the other day and I want to comment on it because even though I understand the sentiment of the idea, which I interpret as commitment is about being with someone who you are dedicated to regardless of the situation you experience with them, I have issues with the paragraph itself. There seems to be some serious contradictions within it due to word choices that I feel the need to point out and comment on. Instead of doing this on the family member's page and create this long comment, which probably would have taken two comments to fully express, I decided to do it here on my blog where I don't answer to anyone, but myself. Your comments are welcomed and appreciated even if you don't agree with me.
I have come to realize that I attract people into my life that resonate with my own vibrational frequency of growth and expansion and even though I have a strong energy of a mentor / teacher and hold the energy of a nurturing mother, I also am a student or Seeker, which is why I attract these types of individuals. I want to learn. I thirst for knowledge and understanding, not only of the Universe and the Nature of God Herself, but of many different things: concepts, ideas, cultures, philosophies, and anything that is different from my own life experience. My quest is knowledge and I enjoy learning about the things that captivate me especially when they are focused on humanity. This is why I attract other students or Seekers and this makes perfect sense to me. I seek the company of those who are also seeking
My sister, who is four years younger, is visiting with my two nieces from Texas. She moved to the Lonely Star state about three years ago for a number or reasons, but that is her story to share, and has come home for my nephew’s college graduation. She arrived in Massachusetts the first weekend in June and is planning to drive back to Austin at the end of July. And I’m going to miss her. To be completely transparent concerning my feelings about her departure; I don’t want her to go. I simply don’t want her to leave. And as surprising as it was, when I sat here at my PC and typed out the proceeding words, tears rolled down my face. I understand that my desire for her to stay is completely selfish and that these feelings are premature because she still has two more weeks in Massachusetts, but I can only imagine that my desire will not diminish, but grow. And, yes, I realize that it is completely necessary for her to return to Texas, but if I had the ability to keep her here without compromising her and my nieces’ well-being, I would. Seriously, I would cast a fucking powerful spell and it would manifest.
Some people are happy in a love relationship, some individuals are unhappy in a love relationship, and others are in search of a love relationship. Your present status is completely up to you. You are in control of whether you are in a love relationship, whether you are aligned with love relationships or not. Once you are able to align yourself with that particular vibrational frequency you will then synchronistically find those who are also in search of a love relationship. The process may not be a simple task for some individuals due to their own issues or shadows.
You can only live your life; you cannot create a life for anyone