In an email from a subscriber / viewer of my YouTube Channel I was asked, "How do you end a relationship with a god when you feel the time with them is done?" Honestly I had never really considered this topic throughout the time I've been involved with my spiritual path though I do not have a specific god or goddess that I worship or work with at this time, I have in the past. Over the years I've been following a pagan spirituality my matron and patron deities have shifted  and I've had rich and full relationships with; the Christian god, Mother Mary, Jehovah, Bast, Isis, Thoth, Danu, and Cernunnos, so I took some time and contemplated how my relationship with one god ended and another began. I wanted to give an honest answer to the inquiry I was given. 

After reading and responding to some comments left on a YouTube video of mine, ​I wanted to share some thoughts I had regarding our relationships with our gods because it seemed to me that some viewers and subscribers have the belief that the gods desire to be worshiped in only one way ​- that there is a "right" way and a "wrong" way to worship gods such as Isis, Bast, or Anubis, and frankly, I completely disagree. To believe that the gods are such flat one dimensional beings, that they have such strict "rules" in place that every single devotee MUST follow or said individual is either 1) not worthy of their attention, or 2) not really worshiping that particular god and must therefore be worshiping someone or something else ... is ridiculous, in my opinion. If human beings can be multidimensional beings and we are clearly manifested on a physical plane of existence, wouldn't the gods at least be as multidimensional as we? 

The Cone of Power had been sent to its target and I stood in silence. It was unusual that I was not leading Ritual that evening but I welcomed the opportunity to purely focus on myself and not be required to maintain the ebb and flow of the group’s energy. I kept my eyes closed as I basked in the bliss that always followed. The Brother on my right and the Sister on my left let go of my hands but I kept them outstretched as if I still held them in my own. The sound of the other coven members shuffling within Circle filtered into my ears as they began moving into the next phase of our Ritual, Cakes and Ale. In the distance I heard something … a sound that seemed out of place for the city. It was a honking. Not a car horn but rather the honking of geese.

Deity is ineffable, enigmatic, immense, immanent, transcendent, indivisible and mutable. Deity is that which is and was and will always be. There is nothing that is not deity. Even if all things have the appearance of being separate and divisible. They are not. All beings are individual and yet collective in their infinite expressions. Deity is all things; that is why Deity is known to be a Sacred Mystery. 

Deity is within all and is physically manifested in all. Male gendered beings are physical expressions of the masculine energies of Deity and female gendered beings are physical expressions of the feminine. Within them both resides the other. 

It is my opinion that Christianity uses fear and guilt as a weapon to control their followers. There is the constant fear of committing a sin. A sin is defined as a morally bad act that is not in accord with rationale informed by the Word of God. These acts are offensive to God and thusly will separate us from Him. (Fear of abandonment). Some Christian religions have categories for sin: original sin (which was passed to us from Adam), venial sin (which impedes us in attaining our way to Heaven), and mortal sin (which averts us from Heaven). Those are the categories that I recall from my years as a Catholic but in all fairness that idea may have changed since I left the Church. I was also taught that Sin stains the soul so; no sin shall be without punishment. The sinner must

I am a very religious/spiritual individual. Anyone who spends quality time with me also comes to realize this. My spiritual life mixes and mingles with my mundane reality consistently; to separate the two is impossible. I live my life with intention and create my reality through magick. My relationship with God Herself is apparent in everything I do. Though there have been moments within the stream of my life experience when the connection was strained - I have always been a spiritual woman. It is possible that the reason my spiritual and mundane are so intertwined is due to nurturing by my Roman Catholic parents. They insisted that I attend CCD classes each week, attend Sunday Mass with them as well as all Holy Days of Obligation. This was an expectation that as a child I resented but in my later years embraced. I always held a strong sense of spirituality within me.

As soon as I was mature enough to be able to immerse myself within spirituality and my religion - I did. Reading. Studying. 

I’ve always considered myself religious and/or spiritual. The word I chose to describe myself really depended on when in my life you ask me and where I was on my path seeking Truth. Was I religious? Yes, indeed I was - if at that time I was Roman Catholic or Methodist or One of Jehovah’s Witnesses. Was I spiritual? Yes, if you asked me at any other time. Because, you see, just as countless others have, I’ve traveled a convoluted winding pathway of concepts and ideas some filled with contradictions and absolutes as well as freedom from all dogma and restrictions. I am constantly seeking the answers to life’s most profound questions. You know the ones: Why am I here? What is the purpose of my life? What does God want from me? The list of questions goes on and on and I always felt there was a way to find the answers. I was certain they didn’t dwell in a book nor would pure faith give me the responses I sought. I knew they were within my reach. Somewhere. I just couldn’t see them. I needed to find the key, which my spirit/soul/inner being told me was buried within spirituality.

I was reminded of this message that I sent to a subscriber on my YouTube Channel when asked about my understanding of the nature of God/dess.


Here are my thoughts and opinions on the question of the nature of deity (god/dess). My belief is that God Herself (a blending of masculine and feminine energies) is transcendent, immanent and manifested. Everything that exists on this physical plane of existence is a manifestation of God Herself. The nature of deity is spirit or energy and essence that cannot be touched physically but rather emotionally.

 God Herself is all-powerful, omniscient, supremely understanding and loving as well as perfect, however what is important to understand is that perfection is subjective. We understand these words from a very human perspective and even then we each understand perfection from a personal perspective that is tainted by our own human experiences. God Herself is beyond this, though she is also of each individual human experience because we each are of and are part of what makes God Herself.

 What is different between Wicca and Christianity is that we understand that God Herself IS within each of us but we ARE God Herself as well because we ARE manifestations of God Herself. There truly is no difference between humans and deities. Deities are personifications of God Herself so that we can easily relate to the qualities and attributes of The All. When we look at immortality we also understand that we, too, are immortal. Our physical bodies die but we are reborn. Personally I do not believe that God Herself requires worship. Worship is not a word I use when I discuss my relationship with deity. I work with my goddess and god. I also remember that I am a manifestation of them and treat myself with respect and love.